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Thursday, December 25, 2008 @ 4:53 PM
merry christmas everyone ~may all of you have a splendid time celebrating with your love ones ^^.yesterday night sleep abit late, accompany uncle play facebook bowling ...woots~ he help me play until im at rank #5 ...thank you thank you ...then i wanted to rest my head for awhile inside room,i end up falling asleep!!! lol(:then today, morning ...wake up, follow uncle go buy breakfast ^^.then after our breakfast ...go to cementary, to visit grandma, grandpa & mom's ...then when at mom's graveyard ~theres was this pain inside me suddenly struck my heart ~it was painful ... i could not describe the pain ~and i could not describe how i feel ~i forced myself not to cry ... i remind myself not to cry ...but ... i failed ~when uncle allow me some time to talk to mom ...i dont know what to say ..there are alot of things to say to her, alot of things i want to tell her ..but so little time & my mind just turn blank~while talking to her ... tears just keep flowing out from my eyes ...i try to hid my face from uncle ~while they walking back towards the car ...i just keep numb in the car ~looking out of the window just staring at the nature ~as uncle speeds up and horn the car **i woke up from my senses ... & just close my eyes and took a little nap ...so i guess that's all for today ..once again, merry christmas people ^^.i love you.i miss you.wahida~
